2 years, time really flies.

Was doing my workouts, playing with my phone, browsing through my Facebook as usual, viewed my history and guess what? I've browsed through my old old blog!

Read the last blog, was 2 years ago, time do flies. So much has changed, I grew older and of course much more wiser, but nothing change is that I am still a dedicated nurse myself, hehehehe. I am always proud of myself being a nurse, not because of wanted to be a hero, but the satisfaction of offering my service to those in need.

I've been transferred to Accident & Emergency Department approximately 6 months ago, which is my dream department since I joined nursing. 3 words, Challenging. Exciting. Bloody. Yes, I'm not kidding cause it can be real bloody at times.

And and and, I'm engaged! Yaaayy! I know this blog won't have much readers or any reader to be precise, but well, I'll make good use of this to be my Dear Diary. Maybe I shall blog more.




Yep, picture of me being taken, and I will be officially getting married next year. New stage of life and I'm so so so nervous.




Me in my emergency uniform. Looking great eh? xD.

One of a Kind.

Finding the love of your life isn't hard, in fact, it's never hard at all. Hardest part? To keep 'the one' to be with you till the end of life. Yes, breaking up, the hurt, the moving on part, live on, finding another love of our life. The cycle goes on and on if you never appreciate your 'the one'.

I won't say nor promise that I've found my 'the one'. But one thing for sure, I will make sure and do my best to make him as my love of my life and 'the one' for me. For someone to accept each other's imperfections and making that imperfection perfect, that's what is needed most in a relationship.

I will never say that my relationship goes super well in the beginning. At first, I admit that I only like him, in fact, I felt he's a really nice guy, and willing to sacrifice whole lot for me, I was thinking, why not, it's worth a try. I always felt he's super annoying with his cute-ness cause I really do hate cute people. And he's a GUY, GUY, MALE! And he's cute, oh gosh, I just put myself into trouble. Who knows when time goes by, I saw his effort, his willingness, and his, every little behaviours, do mean something.

Then I realize something, people always say, couples always do say, I can't without him/her. This is totally not true, if it's so, how do you survive the period when you haven't met him/her? I realize that, we need to have the responsibility towards your another half as well as yourself. Making each other happy, making each other felt loved, is a commitment. A commitment that makes you willingly to do anything and do your very best for each other.

He's in Kuantan now for work, and I'm gonna meet him tomorrow. Can't wait for him. I miss you so much Terry. I really do.

2d 1n =D

Had one day off from the hectic workplace, first time taking bus to go back hometown. Damn stressed when I'm on my way to Pudu central hahahaha. Because I'm used to take train you know hees, well, first time anyway.

Reached Ipoh bout 7pm, he came picked me up from the bus stand near his house. Oh yeah, btw this trip is unknown to my parents hualalala. They won't mind anyway. Went back to his house, and his cousin sis too. Went to Aeon and bought ingredients for our planned homemade steamboat wheeee~ We are super damn full. Over estimated, bought too much, too full.

The next day which is a Saturday, early morning he went for work, and I'm sleeping nicely and he woke me up at 12pm to call me hang my clothes. I was sleeeeeping sooo soundly. Anyway, I need to wake up early too cause we got movie to catch at 1350H hehe. R.I.P.D. The movie, was okay actually. But the guy is handsome and the girl is hot. hahahaha. We had our movie marathon that day, watched Wolverine at 1620H hehehe. It was awesooome. Hugh Jackman is so maan. His, his, manliness *slurrppss*. AND AND and we bought our ingredients and we are cooking our own dinner again hahahaha!

I'm in charge of the veggies and preparing and he in charge of the meats. But he needs to go to fetch his parents so we started cooking quite late. And again, we had a late super full dinner. I gained 1.3kg in these two days. \o.o/

His parents bought me souvenirs from Aussie hehehe. So nice of them.

Hmm...Hmmm??

People always say, when life gives you lemon. Make lemonade. My version? When life gives you shit, use them as fertilizer. Or, OR, When life gives you lemon and shit, throw back at them HARD!

I just don't understand why living a simple life can be so so hard? I never expect much, I never ask for more. I'm living life as it is and seriously, I give more than I could offer and I never asking for any returns.

I just wish, each day after work, stressful and heavy workloads from that damn building just 10mins walk down the road, come back to my room and sleep and have my routine workout. But shits do happen don't they?

Maybe I didn't give a clear image, or maybe I'm just not ready to open up myself. Sometimes I do wonder, what's wrong? I do my best, I tried my best, but do I not make myself clear in my words? Arguments after arguments, and there you go, arguments again. I never wanted to argue with you but why you want to think so much bout my words? I mean no harm, no indirect meanings, why are you being so sensitive?

Bahh, I'm so tired or arguments, unresolved arguments and pretend it's nothing wrong. I am a person that need to sort out everything and everything in order. But I've fallen to deep into this, I can't back down right now. Too many parties are involved, I do not wish to hurt anyone else anymore. Everything got their own solutions right? I just gotta wait for the right time.

Please T, my intentions are good. Try not to think so deep into my sentences. I'm a simply person. You are a simple person. Let's just live with our simple life alright? I will not go away. I love you so much than you can ever imagine.

Don't take things for granted. That's all I can say. If not, things will only get worse.

Double, double double??

Just finished off my second double shift, yup, 2 days continuously double shifts which means 14 hrs working non stop. Phew, I did it, once again. Didn't really expected this, but well, for the sake of the money and due to lack of staffing. It's tiring but I know, it's worth it. Working with my kakaks, and friends, everyday is a wonderful day for me. :)

Some patients and relatives might be extremely a pain in the ass but, yeah, I do love to follow some doctor's rounds. For example today, :

Me : Doctor, one more patient in that room *pointing to him*
Doc : Oh Okay.
Me : Doctor, you need to wear the N95 mask, this patient got PTB. *I was wearing the mask*
Doc : Aiya! No need la, PTB is those for who is immunosuppressant. *walks into the room*
Me : Doctor, I don't care, I scared to be infected.
Doc : The mask looked like a beak, you looked like a duck QUACK QUACK.

HAHAHAHA. I was laughing so hard cause he really did make the quack quack sound in front of the patient!

Working sooo sooo hard like a mad cow, yeah, it's exhausting but as long as think positively and everything's gonna be just fine. Remember, shits do happened, such as working with shitty people that is superb lazy and doctors who made you look like an idiot or relatives just want to find some tiny faults on you.

Never give up, I can do it, everyday's a new challenge, working means money. All these I've been telling myself everyday to keep me going. And I'm gonna be stronger each day. :)

Second shift :)

At last...

At last...he's officially graduated!!! YAAAAYY!! After 1 yr graduated from  his university life, at last he had his graduation ceremony. I didn't attend the whole thing though cause I was working morning shift. So, after work I've straight changed to my dress and rush to SPCC (Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre). Didn't manage to take much pictures because when I went in, I already met him at door front.

I can't recognize hi at first because I didn't wear my glasses. I was wondering, who's the big guy over there. So tall and big HAHAHAHA. Oh okay, it's my boyfriend *giggling*.

The food inside was so so only. Not much of choice, but because I was starving, so I grabbed whichever food that's edible, well, all food are edible there. Chatted and meet up with his family, saying hi to his friends. Gosh, I miss my graduation, but too bad I got my Diploma cert only and not be able to wear the 'proud' square hat. Now not, but future might be hehehe.

After that we proceed to Subang area to look for photo studio. Took some pictures of his proud hat and robe.

Top from left (Charleston, me, Terry, Joshua, Bronson)
Bottom from left ( his mom, his dad, Josh's dad and mom)

Yup, that's my boy :)))

Expired, abandoned?

Yeah, here am I writing a post in this abandoned, old blog of mine. Last post is like, 1 year + ago? hahaha. So so much has happened during these 1 year plus of mine. Shifting to a whole new working environment, been through so much thick and thins with my friends, break ups and finding a new love of mine. *shy*

Well, hmm... It's almost been a year since I shifted to Sunway Medical Centre to work, away from my old hospital Assunta, meeting new colleagues, meeting new friends and making new best friends. I love my job, really. Life as a nurse never been easy, live to care for others' lives is never never an easy job. But, definitely, when the tough gets tougher, I'll become even stronger than before.

Almost a year I' working as a staff nurse in Sunmed. Wanted so much to transfer to Accident and Emergency department a.k.a A & E. But the sister just won't let me go, always says had enough staffing but the fact is? NURSES ARE NEVER ENOUGH, NOT IN SUNMED, NOT IN MALAYSIA, NEVER IN THIS WORLD.

I guess, it's enough of writing. I think I'll blog ore often. As it's just too stressful to keep it to myself, and I'll just blog it out. I know this blog no one's reading it anymore, but oh well, acts as a diary of mine.

Till next time <3