2 years, time really flies.

Was doing my workouts, playing with my phone, browsing through my Facebook as usual, viewed my history and guess what? I've browsed through my old old blog!

Read the last blog, was 2 years ago, time do flies. So much has changed, I grew older and of course much more wiser, but nothing change is that I am still a dedicated nurse myself, hehehehe. I am always proud of myself being a nurse, not because of wanted to be a hero, but the satisfaction of offering my service to those in need.

I've been transferred to Accident & Emergency Department approximately 6 months ago, which is my dream department since I joined nursing. 3 words, Challenging. Exciting. Bloody. Yes, I'm not kidding cause it can be real bloody at times.

And and and, I'm engaged! Yaaayy! I know this blog won't have much readers or any reader to be precise, but well, I'll make good use of this to be my Dear Diary. Maybe I shall blog more.




Yep, picture of me being taken, and I will be officially getting married next year. New stage of life and I'm so so so nervous.




Me in my emergency uniform. Looking great eh? xD.

One of a Kind.

Finding the love of your life isn't hard, in fact, it's never hard at all. Hardest part? To keep 'the one' to be with you till the end of life. Yes, breaking up, the hurt, the moving on part, live on, finding another love of our life. The cycle goes on and on if you never appreciate your 'the one'.

I won't say nor promise that I've found my 'the one'. But one thing for sure, I will make sure and do my best to make him as my love of my life and 'the one' for me. For someone to accept each other's imperfections and making that imperfection perfect, that's what is needed most in a relationship.

I will never say that my relationship goes super well in the beginning. At first, I admit that I only like him, in fact, I felt he's a really nice guy, and willing to sacrifice whole lot for me, I was thinking, why not, it's worth a try. I always felt he's super annoying with his cute-ness cause I really do hate cute people. And he's a GUY, GUY, MALE! And he's cute, oh gosh, I just put myself into trouble. Who knows when time goes by, I saw his effort, his willingness, and his, every little behaviours, do mean something.

Then I realize something, people always say, couples always do say, I can't without him/her. This is totally not true, if it's so, how do you survive the period when you haven't met him/her? I realize that, we need to have the responsibility towards your another half as well as yourself. Making each other happy, making each other felt loved, is a commitment. A commitment that makes you willingly to do anything and do your very best for each other.

He's in Kuantan now for work, and I'm gonna meet him tomorrow. Can't wait for him. I miss you so much Terry. I really do.

2d 1n =D

Had one day off from the hectic workplace, first time taking bus to go back hometown. Damn stressed when I'm on my way to Pudu central hahahaha. Because I'm used to take train you know hees, well, first time anyway.

Reached Ipoh bout 7pm, he came picked me up from the bus stand near his house. Oh yeah, btw this trip is unknown to my parents hualalala. They won't mind anyway. Went back to his house, and his cousin sis too. Went to Aeon and bought ingredients for our planned homemade steamboat wheeee~ We are super damn full. Over estimated, bought too much, too full.

The next day which is a Saturday, early morning he went for work, and I'm sleeping nicely and he woke me up at 12pm to call me hang my clothes. I was sleeeeeping sooo soundly. Anyway, I need to wake up early too cause we got movie to catch at 1350H hehe. R.I.P.D. The movie, was okay actually. But the guy is handsome and the girl is hot. hahahaha. We had our movie marathon that day, watched Wolverine at 1620H hehehe. It was awesooome. Hugh Jackman is so maan. His, his, manliness *slurrppss*. AND AND and we bought our ingredients and we are cooking our own dinner again hahahaha!

I'm in charge of the veggies and preparing and he in charge of the meats. But he needs to go to fetch his parents so we started cooking quite late. And again, we had a late super full dinner. I gained 1.3kg in these two days. \o.o/

His parents bought me souvenirs from Aussie hehehe. So nice of them.

Hmm...Hmmm??

People always say, when life gives you lemon. Make lemonade. My version? When life gives you shit, use them as fertilizer. Or, OR, When life gives you lemon and shit, throw back at them HARD!

I just don't understand why living a simple life can be so so hard? I never expect much, I never ask for more. I'm living life as it is and seriously, I give more than I could offer and I never asking for any returns.

I just wish, each day after work, stressful and heavy workloads from that damn building just 10mins walk down the road, come back to my room and sleep and have my routine workout. But shits do happen don't they?

Maybe I didn't give a clear image, or maybe I'm just not ready to open up myself. Sometimes I do wonder, what's wrong? I do my best, I tried my best, but do I not make myself clear in my words? Arguments after arguments, and there you go, arguments again. I never wanted to argue with you but why you want to think so much bout my words? I mean no harm, no indirect meanings, why are you being so sensitive?

Bahh, I'm so tired or arguments, unresolved arguments and pretend it's nothing wrong. I am a person that need to sort out everything and everything in order. But I've fallen to deep into this, I can't back down right now. Too many parties are involved, I do not wish to hurt anyone else anymore. Everything got their own solutions right? I just gotta wait for the right time.

Please T, my intentions are good. Try not to think so deep into my sentences. I'm a simply person. You are a simple person. Let's just live with our simple life alright? I will not go away. I love you so much than you can ever imagine.

Don't take things for granted. That's all I can say. If not, things will only get worse.

Double, double double??

Just finished off my second double shift, yup, 2 days continuously double shifts which means 14 hrs working non stop. Phew, I did it, once again. Didn't really expected this, but well, for the sake of the money and due to lack of staffing. It's tiring but I know, it's worth it. Working with my kakaks, and friends, everyday is a wonderful day for me. :)

Some patients and relatives might be extremely a pain in the ass but, yeah, I do love to follow some doctor's rounds. For example today, :

Me : Doctor, one more patient in that room *pointing to him*
Doc : Oh Okay.
Me : Doctor, you need to wear the N95 mask, this patient got PTB. *I was wearing the mask*
Doc : Aiya! No need la, PTB is those for who is immunosuppressant. *walks into the room*
Me : Doctor, I don't care, I scared to be infected.
Doc : The mask looked like a beak, you looked like a duck QUACK QUACK.

HAHAHAHA. I was laughing so hard cause he really did make the quack quack sound in front of the patient!

Working sooo sooo hard like a mad cow, yeah, it's exhausting but as long as think positively and everything's gonna be just fine. Remember, shits do happened, such as working with shitty people that is superb lazy and doctors who made you look like an idiot or relatives just want to find some tiny faults on you.

Never give up, I can do it, everyday's a new challenge, working means money. All these I've been telling myself everyday to keep me going. And I'm gonna be stronger each day. :)

Second shift :)

At last...

At last...he's officially graduated!!! YAAAAYY!! After 1 yr graduated from  his university life, at last he had his graduation ceremony. I didn't attend the whole thing though cause I was working morning shift. So, after work I've straight changed to my dress and rush to SPCC (Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre). Didn't manage to take much pictures because when I went in, I already met him at door front.

I can't recognize hi at first because I didn't wear my glasses. I was wondering, who's the big guy over there. So tall and big HAHAHAHA. Oh okay, it's my boyfriend *giggling*.

The food inside was so so only. Not much of choice, but because I was starving, so I grabbed whichever food that's edible, well, all food are edible there. Chatted and meet up with his family, saying hi to his friends. Gosh, I miss my graduation, but too bad I got my Diploma cert only and not be able to wear the 'proud' square hat. Now not, but future might be hehehe.

After that we proceed to Subang area to look for photo studio. Took some pictures of his proud hat and robe.

Top from left (Charleston, me, Terry, Joshua, Bronson)
Bottom from left ( his mom, his dad, Josh's dad and mom)

Yup, that's my boy :)))

Expired, abandoned?

Yeah, here am I writing a post in this abandoned, old blog of mine. Last post is like, 1 year + ago? hahaha. So so much has happened during these 1 year plus of mine. Shifting to a whole new working environment, been through so much thick and thins with my friends, break ups and finding a new love of mine. *shy*

Well, hmm... It's almost been a year since I shifted to Sunway Medical Centre to work, away from my old hospital Assunta, meeting new colleagues, meeting new friends and making new best friends. I love my job, really. Life as a nurse never been easy, live to care for others' lives is never never an easy job. But, definitely, when the tough gets tougher, I'll become even stronger than before.

Almost a year I' working as a staff nurse in Sunmed. Wanted so much to transfer to Accident and Emergency department a.k.a A & E. But the sister just won't let me go, always says had enough staffing but the fact is? NURSES ARE NEVER ENOUGH, NOT IN SUNMED, NOT IN MALAYSIA, NEVER IN THIS WORLD.

I guess, it's enough of writing. I think I'll blog ore often. As it's just too stressful to keep it to myself, and I'll just blog it out. I know this blog no one's reading it anymore, but oh well, acts as a diary of mine.

Till next time <3

That's what Friends for...Right?

I love my friends, always. Some of them hurt me over and over again, but I still do forgive them. Am I stupid? Someone says I'm a bit of special case cause I trust people very easily, so I take that as an insult cause it's indirectly saying I'm stupid tsk tsk tsk.

I'm graduating in 1 month time. After these 3 long years, I gain a lot of friends, true ones as well as I lost a few of them. I even have to wear my fake face to face them, it's suffering but well, can't help it, they are being fake to me, why should I be true to them?

I always experience this, whenever we're graduating, or leaving high school or something, I will find my good friends but unfortunately most of them have to go back to their own hometown. Definitely will keep in touch with each other, take bus, take train, tumpang kereta orang or I'll do whatever to meet them. If...I got the time, cause this occupation rarely provides me with sufficient time and energy to travel around for a long time.

Went for early morning jog with my friend, and we walked a the way to Taman Jaya and run for 2 and the half rounds cause the sun is coming out and we're kind of lazy. Today was a failed jogging session cause I normally jog for at least 6-7 rounds :( After that, we walked to nearest kopitam and had a wonderful Pork Noodle. YUMMMAAAY! Had to wait for like 30mins cause the sunty haven't open the shop yet. So we sat around, chit chat, ate the 'chu yuk fun' and went back to college.

Bought 2 pieces of egg tarts for my darlings and I realized something important. Even though the tarts is not expensive nor anything special bout it. But it does make some difference in our hearts, especially when it makes my friend super happy just because of the tarts, she's a pig, severe food lover so I can't blame her hahaha. My friends happy, so am I.

Will spend more time with them for the last few weeks, cause after this, I don't know when will we meet again. Maybe few months once? Once a year? Hopefully will meet each other more often cause I need some crazy friends to go crazy and wild with me once in a while to release stress. As in really release stress hahaha!

Gastritis strikes again...

I've been eating normally and according to time. I was wondering where is this stupid gastritis came from. The feeling of nauseated is unbearable. The reflux, the bloating tummy, tried to vomit out but can't. It's torturing. I'm the kind of girl that will never let my stomach empty. I will keep on finding food and stuffs to put into my mouth. Maybe because of that got some bacterial infection in my tummy? By the way, I'm chewing on roasted spicy green peas and drinking my homemade vico ice right now. YUM YUM~!

Some people said that maybe due to stress. But I never let myself in stressful state before how to be stress? Well, I really need to watch out for my food intake. No spicy, no spices, no acidic food. But I'm in love with CHILLY PADI. How not to eat spicy food you tell me?

My baby boy said that try to calm down and don't put so many things in my head. He told me to work hard, play hard, die young and no stress. Okay, I think I should listen to him and party hard every week bwahahaha!

I'm glad I have someone that always stays beside me no matter what. That truly understands me whenever I'm down and stressed. Even though he might be quite stupid and dumb in some way, but still he's the best guy I've ever had in my life. Never fail to cheer me up and shares my problems with. Once in a while will throw my ultimate tantrum on him and scolding him without reasons, and diverting the problem into smaller problems and totally out of topic.

9 more months, it's not long and it's not considered short, but I can't wait for the moment for him to come back to me. I never shed a tear during his departure, I bet when I receive him back from Australia, I'll cry like a pig. No make up on that day definitely, if not I can't imagine how would my face look like haha.

These time were hard, yeah it's making us crazy. Don't give up on me baby.
                 -For the First Time by The Script-

The lyrics are meaningful and it describes bout us most of it.

Oh yeah, I found some very good friends. But too bad I found them when we're separating soon. All of them going back to their own hospital. I found my party kaki, I found a kakis that can share problems with me and of course, they are a good company. I love you Y and S. Friends forever. Muaaahh~!

Life's Unfair but I'll Fight for It

Life is always unfair. Never been fair. For one moment everything's is under your control, and you expect the expected but at the last minute, it never turns out to be the one you're expecting, and guess what? It pulls you down, lower than the ground to the hell.

That's what I'm going through right now. Luckily I stayed positive, found some innocent people to let me shouted and whined at, and had an 1 hour 1/2 mins sleep, I'm alright once again. I'm Chin Hui again whee!

But still, this incident really made me think hard on my life. Yes I'm still a student for few more weeks I considered. And YOU, YOU! SOME of YOU should have some sympathy on us STUDENTS! And we'll be sitting our most important exam in our Nursing life and our whole life depends on it, and you reluctantly, hak yan changly refused to sign for it. I left just that tiny mini sign and everyone's got it after doing the both procedure and you gave me a illogical reason and only signed one?! Walao ehhhh. I really cannot accept it. We stayed up late, purposely walk back and forth from college to hospital site and at last. Did it, fought so hard for it, and this time is the first time I really did this hard for something. Maybe I'm just too over confident and taking things for granted.

I've learnt my lesson, never expect the expected but always expect the unexpected, because bad things might turn up at the last moment and at least you've prepared well for it. Who knows if it turns out to be good, and you'll enjoy the best moment out of it right?

Positive aura coming back to me again. Mind cleared from those stupid people. Eyes opened to see those who appreciate and cared for me. Heart is freed from pessimistic stuffs.

Conclusion, I'm myself again!! =D

I've reached my limit

I told myself many many uncountable times. Fuck. Sorry cause this post will be full of this words but I can't help it. My anger has reached it's limit.

Everyone kept telling me to keep myself cool and steady and it's just 6 months to go before moving out from the college. Well, today I really can't stand it anymore. I'm having my night shift and of course the one that knows well of course definitely my roommates. But guess what?! Not all are considerate and have brain. Well, actually it's just ONE.

The most shift ever, working for almost than 12hours from 8pm - 8am without any sleep, some more in the busiest ward EVER, call bells ringing, popos feeling agitated, plus walking up down, left right non stop the whole night. And I only can get my sleep for like 7 hours then I have to wake up, bath eat and prepare myself for another busy night again?

Can you be more considerate brainless 21? Yup, I name you brainless 21. I don't want to be too obvious even though it's already damn obvious. Whatever you might say, I write it down in internet to talk bad or gossip or stab behind your back or whatever. We are all girls, who doesn't gossip? Let me tell you something, you should felt proud because you got people from different country reading bout you, and you deserve this international advertisement.

When you're sleeping, I'm considerate enough to lower down the noises when I'm listening to music and when watching dramas. People did mistakes so do I, and I might have talked loudly sometimes but you know what you did? You " TSK " me, loudly with the hmmmm! WHAT...THE...FUCK!!! I never complain the chickeedee noises you made when you talking to your bf till 2-3am at night that annoys me, bang the door hard when I'm still sleeping from the tiring night shift, move on the bed like nobody's business. Seriously, who the fuck you think you are?

Fuck you. Everytime I knew you having morning shift the next day, and you slept early, I surely will try my best to decrease my movement when I climb up to the bed, to make sure didn't wake you up. You made noises with your bunch of friends in the room till 1am during exam and YOUR roommates, not just me, were wide awake staring at the bright light on top of up, can't go to sleep due to the light and the noises. We didn't even TSK the hell out of you!

Please! You're a grown up! Behave like one! Contribute more in this college! To the room! Don't show face when we call you to clean the room! It's not like we are born to see you show face to us!

I'm having whole week leave next week, and I'm so damn happy because I no need to see your face for at least 8 days. I can sleep soundly and happily without worrying when are you coming back from work to wake me up from sleep. You're making my life so miserable in the sense of not letting me to sleep. So proud huh? Fuck you brainless 21.

Tonight is my last night, I wouldn't mind if i not getting enough sleep cause I can sleep all I want. Wa, see you coming into my room really make me feel like slapping you in the face. Don't act innocent, you're not with your armpit smell. ARGH, stop talking with the act cute noise, waaaa, want to act like cat!

PUHLEEAAASSEE LA~!!!

Stay Positive!!! I did it!!

Today is considered the baddest day of the week for me. The most unlucky day. Damn! But, amazingly, I kept myself calm and cool. I did not let my hot temper go wild. A few bad things had happened to me. Not to hurt me physically but still those little tiny mini things will made me gone crazy for normal days.

Let me list out the unlucky incidences that occurred to me today.

1) Argue with a BABI last night caused me insomnia till 2am. Fine, today morning shift, I drank a cup of coffee to kept me going for the whole shift.

2) Didn't slept that well cause had nightmare for the third day consistently. This time about car crash. Bad bad sign.

3) Due to the empty stomach early in the morning, and I'm in the busiest team this morning, I've expected myself will not have my tea time. So, I cooked tom yam maggie + egg this morning at 6am =P. Finish eating, wanted to go out and wash my bowl, pooom! Tom yam all over my uniform! Oh yeah, and the eggs too. All over the floor and I left 20 mins to go to the ward. I quickly took off my uniform, put it in a pail of water realizing that's the last ironed set of uniform, desperately, I quickly go take my un-iron uniform and it look like shit :(. Wipe my floor, put on the new uniform and rush to hospital. SWEATY!!!

4) Reached the ward, manage to copy all the inhalations and it turns out damn loads of them. All have to give in the morning, and I'm the only senior in the team. Fine~

5) Then my junior got scolded for nothing but HER. But since I'm a good senior I helped her to give a good feedback xD. But still, YOU shouldn't scold us 'students' cause we did a lot of things that you won't know.

6) During lunch time, my 'beloved' junior, went for her lunch for more than 30 mins, I think bout 40mins+, and she haven't came back. This seriously made me a bit mad cause I'm starving and in a hypoglycemic state. Restless and diaphoresis.  I don't care anymore, cause staff told me to go eat and don't wait for her.

7) Went to toilet, open the tap water and all splashed onto my uniform, again! My uniform is white and can see through! Arggghhh!

I wrote this as 3.07pm, even though I might not know what the following bad things will happen to me after this hour, I'll still stay positive no matter what.

I've learn a lesson, care less, hurt less. I didn't expect people will return the 'care' I gave them but at least, give me some care ok? I'm tired mentally and physically. If I kept on giving and not receiving, I really scared I might lose my mind, very very soon. That time you can't blame me for being unreasonable and throwing my tantrum.

Amazingly, I still keeping my sanity intact LOL because the whole day I've been telling myself, behind all the bad stuffs, surely God will give a little good thing to me. Even if it's minor, it's still considered a blessing.

I definitely not going to let this to ruin my day!! Hiek hiek ROAR!!!

Complicated feelings.

Yes, it's my own fault again.

Yes, this is an emo post.

Having miserable, unexplainable feelings right now.

Have anyone of you felt these kind of feelings before?

That your whole world had just crushed in just few seconds?

Yes, I'm experiencing it now.

What should I do? Exams round the corner and I just added myself another stress.

The more I want it to be out of my head, the more I kept thinking bout it.

It's the past I know but, I just can't.

I can't accept the fact.

I know I did mistakes too but, this truth is too hard to be accepted.

I need time.

I need some space for my own.

I can feel insomnia is creeping and crawling to me.

Palpitation, nervousness, sweaty hands, body shivering, shaky hands.

Holding tears in my eyes. Preventing them to drop to the Earth.

I need to release myself.

I'm sorry.

But I just need to go out to release myself for this once.

I just need some time to forget and pass through this.

Once this miserable, complex feelings of mine go away, I'll be myself again definitely.

I won't harm myself but I won't guarantee that.

I've been through I lot these few months.

I believe that I'm strong enough to go through this again. 

It's just too sudden and I can't accept it at this moment.

Humans change. I change. You change. Everyone changes.

I don't know how to forgive myself. 

This is the critical moment, after this, I hope I'll be okay.

I'll try my best. I always try my best in everything. 

I'm sorry.

I'm truly sorry. 

What can I do to forgive myself?

Don't drop, don't give up. Stand up.

Hang in there. 

Grieving

Second night has passed and the whole hospital is on the high census season now. Why the hell the census is so dam high? On discharge and another admission coming. The bed have not been carbolize yet and phone calls coming asking for First Class Bed.

Ok, Rest In Peace. I'm in the grieving state now. I think you know why I'm in such state after my previous blog.

Man's live are short. We should enjoy each and every moment whenever we could because we doesn't know when we will be gone. This moment laughing and having a meal with you but the next moment you're gone.

I just woke up from my deep sleep. It's 3.00pm now. And I'm still tired. Whole body aching due to over activity last night. Strained my muscles and my both hands are energyless. My brain total shut down and having hormone imbalance at the moment.

What's happening to my body? Is this the sign of getting old?! NOOOO, I'm just 20. Sweet 20. I'm going to drink my Yakult and and get some sleep again. Goodnight.

First Time ever.

Yesterday night was the first of the 4 nights I'm working in the ward I'm assigned of. I myself requested the night shift as I accumulate all my public holidays during Merdeka Day and also Hari Raya. So, next week I'll be off the whole week =D, yup, something to be happy of but unfortunately, some unlucky things happened.

After finish passing report, my colleague and I were taking observations, closing up the I/O chart, answering the unstoppable call bells, and things were kinda calm. But when one of my staffs went and check out the antibiotic to see it's finish already or not, she came out and informed my Charge Nurse.

My colleague and I were sitting at the counter check the stuffs and I heard my Charge Nurse made a phone call and she said, "Page for Code Blue". I was like super shocked cause I thought I heard wrongly. Code Blue? Are you kidding me? My Charge Nurse was extremely calm and I quickly went and help her to push the emergency trolley into the room.

I can't say much things here. I'm not allowed to. But it was the first time ever I did CPR, which means cardiopulmonary resuscitation.I know that in movies CPR means mouth to mouth rescue breathing. It's not like that. In hospital we rarely do mouth to mouth as to protect us, medical workers. CPR is doing chest compression, by pressing the chest down by manually helping the patient's heart to pump.

Night shift doesn't have much staffs working. So we students are to stand by for the CPR. No carotid pulse, pupils fully dilated, these were the theories we learned but when it came to the real situation, you'll gained experience from it. 

All patients will be sent to ICU, Intensive Care Unit after each code blue. So I followed my staff together and Sister in-charge called me to be the helper in ICU as it's full house there. I stayed with the patient and help whatever I could while I'm observing the Intensive Care Nurse and also anesthetist doing her job. Putting CVL (central venous line), arterial line. At last, patient was kinda stabilized down. 

Amazingly, I faced the whole situation calmly even though at first when paging for code blue I was a bit shocked. Adrenaline rush haha. I realized something, when come to this kind of situation, staying calm is the most important thing. Because when you get nervous, you cant think of anything else. 

So in the end, I became the helper in ICU for 3 hours and helped in sponging a patient =)))

I'm glad I did lent a hand and it was a great experience to me. I'm so proud to be a nurse.

Colour pencil

Once someone told me about the story of a colour pencil.

The story was sent to me through mail.

It was written at 2am.

It says that a relationship is just like a colour pencil.

You said if you have the power of Harry Porter, you will make the colour pencil to be sharp forever.

You will wave the magic wand to sharpen it forever.

Nothing can make it blunt.

Whenever it's blunt, you will sharpen it again for me.

 You said will use the colour pencil to have a colourful life ahead.

You told me you prayed for the same things every night.

I'm trying hard to sharpen the blunt colour pencil again. No matter how long it might take, I will try every single way to sharpen it again and again. I will not miss a single chance anymore. I've made a great mistake by making it blunt. But as long as the lead is still inside the colour pencil, it will definitely become a beautiful colour pencil again. 

I'm sorry. Please forgive me. It was the biggest mistake ever.

Nurse, a funny job =D

Since I myself chose this profession, I can't complain much and only can live my life and adapt to it. There are some funny things that I've observed for the passed 2 years and half.

1) We change bedsheets more than we change our own bedsheet at home.

2) During morning, you will be seeing WE, nurses wearing a transparent plastic apron running around wearing damn funny slippers or sometimes 'Phua Chu Kang' boots pushing commode chair to 'fetch' patient for toilet bath. You all must be thinking what the hell are we doing hahaha.

3) We serve food to people and feed old people eat more than we serve food and feed our own 'old people'. But the feeling of enjoyment when we saw those grandpa and grandma finish up all the food, is indescribable :))

4) We see 'tsunamis' as in diarrhea cases worse than you all could ever imagine. Well, there goes my lunch and dinner.

5) We get scoldings more than your teacher scold you while you're still schooling. 

6) Some of us may appeared small and tiny, but we are way stronger and tougher than you think we are, externally and internally. Don't underestimate us. 

7) For female nurses, it's expected to see us once in awhile to pull our bra straps cause it will definitely drop when we carry patients, or when we change bedsheets or doing any procedure. Bah, don't simply think.

8) You will see us with super neat and tidy hair at the beginning of the shift, glowing and smiling but after a few hours, the smiles are all gone, and the tiny strands of hair coming out from the cap and looked damn tired. But when passing report time, we'll be glowing again as we know it's time to go back home!!

9) When things got real busy and we're running up and down, we tends to get bruises and scratches that we don't even know where the hell we got it from.

10) One thing for sure, we always look forward for our off day!!!

Few more things that always made my bad day to the greatest day ever...

1) I see hope

2) I see smiles

3) I see appreciation to us, nurses

4) We feel the happiness and enjoyment that no one can ever imagine

5) And we learned how to cope with extreme stress.

Gonna go to sleep now, just finish my noon shift. Till next time =))

Totally Random!!

Late blog again, been suuuuupppeeeeeerrrrrbbbb busy for a whole week. Kinda busy xDDD. As my title said, random!!!

Had random outing last Thursday night! It's public holiday (Malaysia Day) on the Friday, so I've been asking people out and seems like transportation is a really big problem for us. Supposed to go club, but in the end it fails awwww. But guess what?! At night bout 10pm, a friend of mine Keng Huat, which I think I knew him since many years ago but never actually seen him face to face suddenly ask me to go Genting. Yup! Genting again! I hesitated cause it's kinda late, but when he mentioned that an old friend of mine from high school is going too, I've changed my mind :)

It's Chan Kai Teng! I only met her once in a while and always only coincidentally. And now I'm going Genting with her! Reached there about 1am, and during the journey up the hill, a lot of stupid damn bikers kept on racing with each other with a Malaysia flag as their cape, damn annoying... They are like blocking the ways and I was thinking, if you gonna to have an accident or what, please don't and not to Keng Huat's car. I've had enough phobia for Genting already. First is the car accident and the second is the got lost thingy.

Ate Chicken Mcdeluxe at 2am in the morning! Damn syok! and Damn spicy! wahahaha! and I had it in Burger King o.O Here are some of the pictures :)

Then we went out and walk along the roadside outside First World Hotel and it's freezing out there! I seriously became a popsicle but luckily I brought my jacket along. We stop by at Oldtown White Coffee and his friends intro a new game to me called Mafia I think? Well, I won a few games muahahaha. Imma good actress!! Wheee!!

Came down bout 4.30am, and overnight at her house. Had some girls chats then we slept till 1pm and ate our brunch... :)

I think I need to sleep already. I'm getting dizzy cause I'm sick. Goodnight people!

Our dance Performance!!

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I've had enough. I'm tired and I don't want it anymore! Yes, I think you're laughing and smiling and insulting me from within. And I'm suffering here mentally. I just want everything to be normal, and live my life as usual. That's it. No more. I really did tried my best. Get out from my life. IHATEYOU.