I told myself many many uncountable times. Fuck. Sorry cause this post will be full of this words but I can't help it. My anger has reached it's limit.
Everyone kept telling me to keep myself cool and steady and it's just 6 months to go before moving out from the college. Well, today I really can't stand it anymore. I'm having my night shift and of course the one that knows well of course definitely my roommates. But guess what?! Not all are considerate and have brain. Well, actually it's just ONE.
The most shift ever, working for almost than 12hours from 8pm - 8am without any sleep, some more in the busiest ward EVER, call bells ringing, popos feeling agitated, plus walking up down, left right non stop the whole night. And I only can get my sleep for like 7 hours then I have to wake up, bath eat and prepare myself for another busy night again?
Can you be more considerate brainless 21? Yup, I name you brainless 21. I don't want to be too obvious even though it's already damn obvious. Whatever you might say, I write it down in internet to talk bad or gossip or stab behind your back or whatever. We are all girls, who doesn't gossip? Let me tell you something, you should felt proud because you got people from different country reading bout you, and you deserve this international advertisement.
When you're sleeping, I'm considerate enough to lower down the noises when I'm listening to music and when watching dramas. People did mistakes so do I, and I might have talked loudly sometimes but you know what you did? You " TSK " me, loudly with the hmmmm! WHAT...THE...FUCK!!! I never complain the chickeedee noises you made when you talking to your bf till 2-3am at night that annoys me, bang the door hard when I'm still sleeping from the tiring night shift, move on the bed like nobody's business. Seriously, who the fuck you think you are?
Fuck you. Everytime I knew you having morning shift the next day, and you slept early, I surely will try my best to decrease my movement when I climb up to the bed, to make sure didn't wake you up. You made noises with your bunch of friends in the room till 1am during exam and YOUR roommates, not just me, were wide awake staring at the bright light on top of up, can't go to sleep due to the light and the noises. We didn't even TSK the hell out of you!
Please! You're a grown up! Behave like one! Contribute more in this college! To the room! Don't show face when we call you to clean the room! It's not like we are born to see you show face to us!
I'm having whole week leave next week, and I'm so damn happy because I no need to see your face for at least 8 days. I can sleep soundly and happily without worrying when are you coming back from work to wake me up from sleep. You're making my life so miserable in the sense of not letting me to sleep. So proud huh? Fuck you brainless 21.
Tonight is my last night, I wouldn't mind if i not getting enough sleep cause I can sleep all I want. Wa, see you coming into my room really make me feel like slapping you in the face. Don't act innocent, you're not with your armpit smell. ARGH, stop talking with the act cute noise, waaaa, want to act like cat!
PUHLEEAAASSEE LA~!!!
Friday, 16 December 2011
Thursday, 8 December 2011
Stay Positive!!! I did it!!
Today is considered the baddest day of the week for me. The most unlucky day. Damn! But, amazingly, I kept myself calm and cool. I did not let my hot temper go wild. A few bad things had happened to me. Not to hurt me physically but still those little tiny mini things will made me gone crazy for normal days.
Let me list out the unlucky incidences that occurred to me today.
1) Argue with a BABI last night caused me insomnia till 2am. Fine, today morning shift, I drank a cup of coffee to kept me going for the whole shift.
2) Didn't slept that well cause had nightmare for the third day consistently. This time about car crash. Bad bad sign.
3) Due to the empty stomach early in the morning, and I'm in the busiest team this morning, I've expected myself will not have my tea time. So, I cooked tom yam maggie + egg this morning at 6am =P. Finish eating, wanted to go out and wash my bowl, pooom! Tom yam all over my uniform! Oh yeah, and the eggs too. All over the floor and I left 20 mins to go to the ward. I quickly took off my uniform, put it in a pail of water realizing that's the last ironed set of uniform, desperately, I quickly go take my un-iron uniform and it look like shit :(. Wipe my floor, put on the new uniform and rush to hospital. SWEATY!!!
4) Reached the ward, manage to copy all the inhalations and it turns out damn loads of them. All have to give in the morning, and I'm the only senior in the team. Fine~
5) Then my junior got scolded for nothing but HER. But since I'm a good senior I helped her to give a good feedback xD. But still, YOU shouldn't scold us 'students' cause we did a lot of things that you won't know.
6) During lunch time, my 'beloved' junior, went for her lunch for more than 30 mins, I think bout 40mins+, and she haven't came back. This seriously made me a bit mad cause I'm starving and in a hypoglycemic state. Restless and diaphoresis. I don't care anymore, cause staff told me to go eat and don't wait for her.
7) Went to toilet, open the tap water and all splashed onto my uniform, again! My uniform is white and can see through! Arggghhh!
I wrote this as 3.07pm, even though I might not know what the following bad things will happen to me after this hour, I'll still stay positive no matter what.
I've learn a lesson, care less, hurt less. I didn't expect people will return the 'care' I gave them but at least, give me some care ok? I'm tired mentally and physically. If I kept on giving and not receiving, I really scared I might lose my mind, very very soon. That time you can't blame me for being unreasonable and throwing my tantrum.
Amazingly, I still keeping my sanity intact LOL because the whole day I've been telling myself, behind all the bad stuffs, surely God will give a little good thing to me. Even if it's minor, it's still considered a blessing.
I definitely not going to let this to ruin my day!! Hiek hiek ROAR!!!
Let me list out the unlucky incidences that occurred to me today.
1) Argue with a BABI last night caused me insomnia till 2am. Fine, today morning shift, I drank a cup of coffee to kept me going for the whole shift.
2) Didn't slept that well cause had nightmare for the third day consistently. This time about car crash. Bad bad sign.
3) Due to the empty stomach early in the morning, and I'm in the busiest team this morning, I've expected myself will not have my tea time. So, I cooked tom yam maggie + egg this morning at 6am =P. Finish eating, wanted to go out and wash my bowl, pooom! Tom yam all over my uniform! Oh yeah, and the eggs too. All over the floor and I left 20 mins to go to the ward. I quickly took off my uniform, put it in a pail of water realizing that's the last ironed set of uniform, desperately, I quickly go take my un-iron uniform and it look like shit :(. Wipe my floor, put on the new uniform and rush to hospital. SWEATY!!!
4) Reached the ward, manage to copy all the inhalations and it turns out damn loads of them. All have to give in the morning, and I'm the only senior in the team. Fine~
5) Then my junior got scolded for nothing but HER. But since I'm a good senior I helped her to give a good feedback xD. But still, YOU shouldn't scold us 'students' cause we did a lot of things that you won't know.
6) During lunch time, my 'beloved' junior, went for her lunch for more than 30 mins, I think bout 40mins+, and she haven't came back. This seriously made me a bit mad cause I'm starving and in a hypoglycemic state. Restless and diaphoresis. I don't care anymore, cause staff told me to go eat and don't wait for her.
7) Went to toilet, open the tap water and all splashed onto my uniform, again! My uniform is white and can see through! Arggghhh!
I wrote this as 3.07pm, even though I might not know what the following bad things will happen to me after this hour, I'll still stay positive no matter what.
I've learn a lesson, care less, hurt less. I didn't expect people will return the 'care' I gave them but at least, give me some care ok? I'm tired mentally and physically. If I kept on giving and not receiving, I really scared I might lose my mind, very very soon. That time you can't blame me for being unreasonable and throwing my tantrum.
Amazingly, I still keeping my sanity intact LOL because the whole day I've been telling myself, behind all the bad stuffs, surely God will give a little good thing to me. Even if it's minor, it's still considered a blessing.
I definitely not going to let this to ruin my day!! Hiek hiek ROAR!!!
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